And basically, that's what high school was for me. A major letdown. I've been going to the same damn place for the past four years, and I can honestly tell you that I did not a) finally stand up to that bully who was really an insecure girl with family problems, b) get the most popular guy to like me and realize that he really is a sweetheart and a musically talented boy at heart, or c) get paid by the biggest nerd in school to be his girlfriend for a month and then totally fall in love with him after I give him a McDreamy makeover. Nope. I got four years in a gross smelly place where the bathrooms are periodically closed because people keep smoking in them. I got one serious boyfriend who was a total idiot, and about six "flings" that always ended with "you're always so busy with swimming, and I want someone who's always around" or "do you think you'd lose your virginity to me?" (the last one was an ending by MY choice). Really, all I've gotten from getting shoved into a hell-hole with other hormonal idiots is learning swear words and getting the balls to tell people to fuck off and to stick it where the sun don't shine. And I'm pretty sure I'm more intelligent than half the teachers I've had. I wish I was kidding.
Okay, sure, I've met some of the most amazing people. I've got friends that could kick your friends' asses. I've also grown up a lot. I've had to do some things that I never thought I'd ever have to go through (like buying a pregnancy test for my friend or turning another into the nurse for overdosing in pain killers). I've seen a lot of crazy things and felt a lot of pain. But I honestly feel like thats growing up, not being in high school. All high school does is turn every little screw up into the best thing that's ever happened to the gossip mill. It's stupid and annoying and I honestly cannot wait to graduate.
xoxo,
carly rae
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